Whole Truth and Nothing But the Truth WEDNESDAY

I did it! I actually made an entry on the right day. Granted it's two weeks late, but yeah. It's Wednesday. I have had a pretty good two weeks... oh that's a load of crap. The last two weeks have been super difficult. I have been mentally and physically exhausted. The numbers on the scale were among 140-142 for about 3 weeks. Now, mind you, I'm used to losing around a pound a week. I was running about 24+ miles a week and eating the way that I was supposed to. It just wasn't happening; I felt like a "mouse on a wheel." It all culminated on Sunday when after a weekend of hardly working out (not on purpose), I felt so awful that I took off on a 2 mile run in the heat. I felt like I was going to burst into tears the whole time. (and by now you're saying, ok Becky get to the point, this is depressing)

The point is... fitness can sometimes suck! Ok, that might not be quite it... the point is... you have to keep going no matter how hard it gets. The point is perseverance. During this time, I was also trying to remind myself of what I had already accomplished; to look at the bigger picture. It's good to have milestones along the way. I recommend keeping a journal or keep something concrete like pictures... to be able to refer to when times are tough. For me it's been pictures... every month I've taken a new photo. I have also kept one pair of shorts from my previous weight and let me tell you, that is a motivator!

So with that, highs and lows:

High: Someone telling me they've joined the gym because of me. Several people have actually told me this, and it never gets old. I'm happy that my life can be an example to others.

Low: I'm going to have to go with my aforementioned meltdown. But I'm good now. Promise :)

Lastly... weight...
137.7 (yep... 130's baby!) :)

Truth Delayed...

Man, not having internet readily available puts quite a damper on updating. Although, my ridiculous schedule has something to do with that too... but that's for another time.

Just finished a soccer game. Loved it... for a couple reasons really... 1) I get my workout in 2) it's competitive 3) it's not just running for the sake of running 4) it's FUN! (the fun factor can go up or down depending on how many times I've gotten hit in the head that game...) I encourage you to get involved in team sports. Even as an adult, they're still valuable. Camaraderie and competition is something that helps you to vent and have fun. (not necessarily in that order :)

Don't have too much time tonight so I'm going to get right to H&L's.

High: I was looking in the mirror the other day, and I was happy... I thought to myself, if I was someone else, and I hadn't seen me since last year, I would not recognize myself. I feel like I've taken control of my life... that in itself is an AWESOME feeling! I've also been eating really well... something else I'm proud of.

Low: Though I have taken control of my life, I've been running myself ragged. I have been neglecting sleep and that is something that is also necessary to a healthy mind and body.

Note: Certification materials to be purchased in the next month. Here's to getting certified!

141.5 ... -4lbs... 2weeks not too shabby (let me tell you, it's getting hard!)

A Revelation...

I have come to the realization that when you lose 108lbs. and you try to swim, you're not as buoyant as you used to be. Lack of buoyancy = sinking. Sinking is NOT GOOD when it comes to triathalons and swimming. Thankfully I have a wonderful trainer who's teaching me to breathe and swim at the same time. I'm feeling a bit behind as the triathalon is now two months away. Two months! Crazy!

Saturday I had a dream that I ate pancakes, ice cream, and a few other things that were not in my list of eating. I remember being SO disappointed in myself that I couldn't keep it together for another weekend. Then I woke up. I was so re-leaved! You don't even know how frustrated I have become... I don't know what's worse, being so far away from goal that you don't think you'll ever get there, or being so close that every pound is so much work! Ok, overweight is definitely worse, but still. Ugh!

Another thing about cravings... I realized that I'll always have them. Say I go to IHOP to get the chocolate chip pancakes I'm craving... I'll be satisfied.... for today. Tomorrow, I may want pizza... chocolate cookies the day after that. So the trick is... how to satisfy the craving, without adding 1,000's of calories to your day. Chocolate chip pancakes... maybe make your own using wheat flour, with cinnamon, egg whites, and a little chocolate protein powder... then in a saucepan use strawberries and Truvia instead of syrup... Pizza can be done using a half of a whole wheat or multi-grain pita, low-fat mozzarella, and sauce (making your own using a food processor or blender would be even better) The internet is a great resource for recipes and high calorie alternatives!

So I hope my little rant helped... we all need a little rant sometimes. :)